uhggggg

i havent been able to draw anything!!!!  its driing me insain!!!  i dont get it!  nothings coming out the way i want it and i feel like ive lost all my skills!!!  simple doodles are taking me like 3 hours! and i end up deleting them because it looks like a 4 year old drew them!! im seriously losing my mind! i have no inspiration or motivation.  i havent really come up with a new character in forever...cept riven...but i cant even draw him any more sooo.    usually my music sparks my art...but thats not even helping.  and usually i fall asleep with my music in and that gives me ideas...but lately, my music is just starting to prevent me from sleeping.  its like im a completley different person.  i honestly feel like i could walk  away from drawing right now and be fine.  i wouldnt miss it i wouldnt doodle anymore....ive tried to stop drawing in the past....but i can never bring myself to do it...but now it just seems so easy.  but i dont wana stop...but im also sick of not being able to do anything! uhggg its so annoying!!  maybe its because i have so much free time... ? cuz that makes sense.  movies used to help me get inspired...and ive been watching a lot of movies lately...but now theyre just making me depressed because i cant draw/ think of those cool ideas anymore.  with out my art...i feel like nothing.  my art was the thing that would help me pass the time and help me get my emotions out...but now...ive been sitting around playing solitaire because i cant think of ANYTHING to draw.  im going insane over here.  this is seriously the longest art block ive ever had....its been like 2 and half weeks since ive drawin something that i actually liked...

what ever....just thought id let you guys know.   im gonna try to finishe up some commissions...then i might be taking a really really long break from drawing.... theres no point in me upload things that i dont like.  so untill i get my  inspiration and motivation back....i probably wont be post a lot of art....maybe a few doodles here and there...but thatll be about it...so...sorry if i seem like im never on here.  and sorry i probably wont answer most comments....i honestly dont feel like im worthy of them with the shit im putting out.  (its shit to me any way....i know i can do better, ive seen myself do better...but for some reason i just cant get to that "better" point right now...im stuck) so yeah

sorry